I understand, I was the same way for a long time, in fact I am still guilty of it to a certain degree, wanting to view things from my aparent's point of view. Not being able to put myself first, in my own life.
Hey how crazy is that, that I was willing to take a supportive role in my own life story
Well no more
It is hard to be new when we all have been at this for a million years, for me discovering what adoption has meant to me has taken a long time, and involved many twists and turns, and I am actually still firguing it out.