HeatherUK
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I can't tell you how much reading your posts validates my long supressed feelings. I wish I was able to verbalize as well as you guys, but I identify, identify, identify
As a child I had so many questions, and never brave enough to ask. When I did occasionally mention it I was told "we wanted a girl" (they had two boys of their own already) and they said that "babies don't remember their mothers" My parents had no information whatsoever about my natural parents so anything I was told was pure speculation. The fantasies that went on in my head! God, they could have so easily been prevented by having information and openness
I love my amum and she knows I'm searching. She's having a hard time accepting and understanding the pain I've been through, but she's trying and I know she feels very guilty now that she knows my real mother's situation at the time of my birth (from my non-id) I love her because she's mentally balanced and not threatened - it would be so much harder if she gave me the guilt trip about searching - there seem to be so many phycho adopters out there, I think I got off lightly! Mine were just well meaning but clueless.
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